i don’t care what you say.

I don’t know why I act the way I do. Though I know many people hate me for being me. I don’t give a damn to all of them. Because there are few who understands me, and they are the only one’s that matter to me. Sure, the opinion of other people matter sometimes, but I don’t have something to be ashamed off, and I don’t have anything to be afraid -of being who I am.

There are those when they see me coming will give me a smile that reaches their ears, but when I’m off them, they do what they are good at –backstabbing. I know a lot of them –usually the ones who tell me that “this person, she’s backstabbing you”.

I’ve meet a lot of people, but only a few, ascended and became my friend –true friend.

And the feeling of being liked by everybody is not in my mind, it was never, because I know that we can’t please everybody, that no matter what you do bad or good there will always be people who will try to dig deep and make you look and feel unworthy. So why bother? Let them do their thing; let them do it until they can. You will lose nothing, but they will -Reputation!

 SO. WHO CARES? -’cause I DONT!

What i like about you!

 

I want to make a list on what do i like about people. But, takenote, that i accept the whole of my true friends & friends. This is just for people i meet casually, its like what attracts me to people who are not close to me.

1. Good looking People. Ussually when i meet good looking people, i want to be friends with them immediately. Which don’t happent because i ussually play the “i’m shy” drama. Plus, thsi is just happening in my mind, i really dont do it.

2. Smart/Intteligent People. When i meet this kind of people, it’s like i want to be with them when boredome is killing me! Because we will always have something to talk about.

3. Witty people. They make me laugh out loud in a very sensible reason. Meaning they are not boring. Plus it’s better laughing all day than staring at a blank wall or something. Plus they make sense.

4. People who are like me. Ofcourse, it’ll be rockin all day when you’re with the persons who are like you. You’ll have so much to do, and stufs to talk & laugh about. You will not get bored cause you’ll enjoying everybit of whatever you do together.

5. People who like me. Because obviously when they like me, i like them too. Period.

6. People who are fun to be with. I like having fun alot. And its nice to be always happy.

7. People who can make me laugh, smile & someone who won’t bore me -to death.

8. People who are open. Open to talk about tabboo topics and open in everything.

9. People who are God fearing! This is the very first trait i want to know about a person.

10. People who love their family.

Its hard to play a game when you dont know your opponent.

Its hard to play a game if you dont know your opponent! I got really pissed of them both! They make my blood boil to the highest level. They are so Annoying! ugh. God help me to control my temper i might burst out..

I push them away, then i will feel bad!

They smile at me i ignore them.
They try to have a conversation with me, i leave them and leave the question hanging.
They tap me behind, i frown and look at them.
They seat beside me, i pretend no one’s beside me.
They try to get my attention, but i shout at them and tell them to stop.
They give hi’s and hellos, i give them a “whatever look”!
Whats wrong with me?!
I give them reasons to back off, then ill feel bad when they stop getting my attention!
Am i crazy?
GOD! Do i have a metal illness? Am i even Normal?
T.T

i need attention people! can you hear me?!

Shit. This feeling should stop now. I’m getting head over heels with someone again and I know that I’m always like these when, um, when I meet someone for the first time or second time or before and now we are keeping in touch again I always turn like these, I always reply to his messages like I mean reply as soon as possible. And it always makes me sick when I become like this.
For the longest time, I don’t know why I’m like this. I get attracted to a man not who he is but what he has, but I’m not the one your thinking, social climber? Mukhang pera? Of course not! My family can give me everything I want plus I im contended with what I have. Duh! I don’t know!
Well, I don’t really like him, but I’m just attached to him, like there’s something in that person that makes me shivers lol. And of course I’m not addicted to him. I just don’t know why im like this.
Maybe I just need more attention. Haha.